The Truth

“I just realized that I do actually look like Korra. I think I am the real life version of Korra.” ~ Cassandra Saturn

Another Attempt on my Life today!

I just had other argument with my ex-mother today and it almost turned into life or death situation for me, the broken pieces of plate was used against me in attempt to injure me. luckily, I turned tables on her and pushed her away from me, I used strong vocal response against her,  the situation was defused quickly as possible.somehow I was able to prevent it from happening so fast. so much that it left me shaken up and scared, afraid.
I admit that I’m actually crying when it happened so fast in split second. one wrong mistake could have meant the end of me.

yet I’m so angry at the fact it almost put my life on the line again since the events of that night which my whole ex-family did attempted murder on me back then..it still left behind that memory of that night along with my scar.. but I’m survivor. I just have to fight for my life if something serious happens to me.

right now, I’m happy and peaceful to not let something like that stop me from doing what I need to do for myself. so right now I will be asking my friends if they will let me move in with them just so that I can move out and no longer live here at the ex-family house anymore. so it’s all wait and see. I certainly hope I’ll be able to do it soon as possible before any more incidents like that happened.
~ Cassandra Saturn

Fight few hours ago and Stealing from Me!

 i had argument with my ex-mother few hours ago, just recently, she stole my power unit line i use for heater in my room to sleep. i slapped her for what she did. -_-

I mean, really? I can’t believe she actually did that to me. it just proves that she is not kind of my mother I have always said she is not.

Hurt over the Years…

even today… it pains me when I see myself in mirror, I see myself crying badly without realizing I was actually crying because I have been hurt over the years.. I look at myself with my own hands, I see tears running like crazy on my face.

I wipe it away and put on my brave face to continue my day or night despite that I’m still stuck in this life, I got no one I can turn to for help or ask.

I’m actually so afraid to ask strangers to help me out, I even know the change is scary experience for me.. but I want to be strong.

to be strong for my own life I want to start anew in my first chapter of my new life.

I wish and hope my experience will serve as reminder that you can do anything once you set your mind to it. but that’s not possible without money.

but I think it will also serve as lesson for future generations who will realize that money is not best choice of life to keep around, but use entirely different system to get by in life.

February 25th 2014! (Late post)

sorry for posting late of my birthday… I’m officially 25 now.

Fan Question: who was your inspiration to start your Fan Comic LoK Series?

Answer: I have been writing fan stories of LoK since Bryan Konietzo was my inspiration to start it in September 9th of 2013, after the LoK first arrived in 2012. also, I wanted to challenge myself in writing stories just like him. he’s my hero to me.

New Fan Comics “Dark Avatar” and “Retribution” Coming soon!

those new Fan Comics of Dark Avatar and Retribution  are coming soon, DA picks up from New Threat, while Ret picks up from DA as well.

DA is Season Three, Ret is Season Four.

here’s nice little spoiler alert for yall!

“Just because I am the Avatar’s sister doesn’t mean that I’m scared, I can still kick your sorry butt”

Cassandra to Mako in Dark Avatar about Sparring Training

 as Korra would say to her own sister, “Have fun beating up my boyfriend, Sis hehe”

Bad News Yesterday..

folks, i got really bad news yesterday.. i found out that i have ND on my whole left side of my body. ND stands for Nerve Damage. apparently the hit to face did cause enough just to cause Nerve Damage to my left side of my body.

whole left side barely works, but still working.

Sadness and Angry, My Life in Ruins…

to be honest, i’ve have been tough trooper for long time, all those years. but in reality, i’m actually sad, hurt and crying all time in real life.

because i don’t have a family who really loves me for who i am and what i want to become.

even i want a family who supports me for going through with this decision, my choice and my life, my happiness.

i’m also crying so badly because i don’t have friends in real life who will be my true friend and support me.

i sometime think about my life and truly hate it so much in way it has happened to me many times that i wish i was never born this way or ever been born.

i blamed myself, my family, everyone i knew in real life for what i had become as boy/man instead of being girl/woman. it’s not fair for a girl like me forced to live life as boy/man all those years instead of being happy.

so i took it out on myself and my own life. i ended up getting hurt over the time just like that.

i just WISHED my life would end, no more of this NIGHTMARE as boy but to wake up as girl, hoping everything is fine and should be the way as it will be. but that will never happen. not in way i want it to be.

Chapter Two: Reunion – LoK: New Threat

(Image: Korra Hugs her father after Tonraq was found again by Cassandra few hours ago back after she found out that Tonraq has wandered off to find Korra)

Korra: “Dad!” “Hugs”

Tonraq: “Korra!” “hugs her back”

Katara: “Korra.. you should tell him. i’ll leave you by. come on, Cassandra”

Cassandra: “alright, Katara”

Katara and Cassandra leave them by for while.

Tonraq: “tell me what, Korra?”

Korra: “D.. Dad.. I.. I’m so scared, Dad. I.. have no connection with Past Avatars.. my connection to them were destroyed.”

Tonraq: “O.. Ohh.. don’t worry. you’ll be fine.”

Korra: “but I’m not Avatar anymore! how can you say that, Dad?!”

Tonraq: “Sweetie.. Avatar or not, you’re best Daughter in whole world. you mean everything to me and your Mother. I love you baby” “hugs”

Korra: “Dad.. I love you too. Thanks Dad.. you’re best Dad in the world too. “hugs him back“

 Cassandra: “sorry to break the reunion, Dad.. but we got trouble coming our way. our only chance to escape is through the Southern Water Tribe City. but the place is packed with angry people. they’ll want us alive.”

Korra: “Cass’s right, Dad. we have to try.”

Tonraq: “alright, let’s go. Katara, go see Senna and tell her to pack everything, we’re leaving the Southern Water Tribe City. our only hope is Republic City.”

Katara: “okay, be careful everyone.”

Tonraq and girls leave for Southern Water Tribe City while Katara goes to Tonraq and Senna’s house.

Chapter One: Awakening – LoK: New Threat

(Image: Korra awakens to find out her Connection to her Past Avatars is gone)

Korra wakes up after her battle with Vaatu. she feels strange. she tried to connect with her Past Avatars. here was none. she realizes her connection to Past Avatars were destroyed in process.

Korra begins to cry, said: “this is my fault..” but a voice said, “no, Korra. it’s not your fault. you did what had to be done.”

she looks to her left side and sees Katara.

Korra: “Katara!”

Katara: “it’s okay, Korra.”

Korra: “no, it’s not okay! i failed!” “cries”

Katara: “oh, shh.. it’s okay.. it’s okay..” “hugs Korra”

Katara: “i’ll take you to your father now”

Korra: “Okay.” “wipes her tears off”